Today was a beautiful sunny day. I did not go outside with my parents and brother so that I could finish some work before going to Iran Thursday. I had an urge to pray and come to the Lord, even though that urge was being ‘suppressed’. I knew it had to be demonic. I prayed the binding prayer and sat down to type. I asked the Lord to open the Tethered book from Clare (Heartdwellers/stillsmallvoice) to something that is on His heart.
I opened to a passage about the day the bombs fall on America. On that day the Lord promised to come for us. He had mentioned on that same day He will come for us. That was on the right page. On the left page He was mentioning that after rapture we have occasions to come and visit our loved ones for encouragement. Our prayers in heaven would then be with much more perspective, knowing that they should be cleansed from sin.
So Here I am Lord, if it is meet in your eyes, please visit me Lord. I am so sorry that it takes so long before I can find a moment of peace and a place to come to you like this. I do feel your presence every day in worship. But this I truly missed. At that moment I could see Him holding me close to his chest and we were just enjoying the moment and the presence. At that moment I said, Lord I just can’t wait to be with you! Oh how peaceful this moment.
‘I truly cannot wait either my love. To be able to Hold my beloved bride in my arms, oh the joy is incomprehensible.’
Lord I think you are allowing me to share in your double feeling. I feel like going any second, but I know that when we are gone things will be so dark here. I cannot stop thinking about those who will be left behind or those that do not have time to repent. Oh how tragic that is. I am so sorry Lord that you must go through all this.
‘Indeed so my beloved, each day I am weeping for those that are lost without. I can never hold them in my arms. I can never converse with them, see the work of their hands, they kept rejecting Me in their lives. There were so many times I was calling for them; I was pleading to them. Oh if they would have listened. If they would have given me a chance to prove my love to them. But the time is coming, and is even at the door, that sin must be done away with.’
At this moment I got distracted by thoughts. And I decided to ask for confirmation if it really was the Lord, and not a familiar spirit. I opened to
And even to your old age I am he; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you. (Isaiah 46:4 KJV)
I’m sorry for my distracted mind, it is a miracle that you find rest in me haha. ‘I have made that mind of yours, so I know my way to your heart.’ Oh my bad haha.
Lord from time to time I get these urges of worries over my marriage. That I have not discerned correctly or that I have believed what I wanted to. I then forcefully try to remember what you told me back then.
‘So why do you doubt then beloved?’
It’s just that I don’t want to be deceived, but I can’t rely on my own self for protection against deception.
‘That is right beloved, I am your Counselor, I am Your wisdom and Your stronghold in rough times. And I am also your hiding place in the day of trouble. I am your discernment, Am I not your shepherd? Can a lamb discern the ways of the wolf? Come to Me whenever you are weary, or confused, I will make straight the paths of the crooked. Trust in Me My love. I am able, have faith in Me. You have faith in God, have also faith in Me.’
Yes sir, thank you Lord for reminding me. As stubborn as I am, I went to the bible promise book and asked the Lord for a last confirmation that this is He that is speaking (I know I am terrible.. haha)
I opened to Holy Spirit and these verses gave me peace:
Turn you at my reproof: behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you. (Proverbs 1:23 KJV)
And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. (John 14:16-17 KJV)
Here I am again Lord, doubting haha. Will I ever get over this?
‘It is possible with grace beloved. Let My peace rule in your heart. When you hear something and you do not find this Peace, know that discernment is crucial. When you hear something and you find peace, know that discernment is recommended. When you discerned and found peace, rest assured, for it will be of Me. I love you tenderly my love. I do not leave you nor forsake you. All that which I have spoken over you will come to pass if you hearken to my voice and follow Me.’
Oh how beautiful are Your words to me Lord. Truly I have found the Jewel of Life. The Hope and Eternal Glory of God. The King of kings, the Lord of lords. The Lover of my soul. The Prince of Peace. Lord I am so excited to see what you will do in Iran. And if you don’t do anything either it is fine with me, because I know that you are working and doing the things.
‘Shall I say it will be a surprise for you? Trust me beloved every day, confessing the sins of this world, which brings me to tears of joy for your supplication to the Father. You pray and ask, not seeing the fruits of your labor, yet believing and trusting that I am hearing your prayers and it is moving the Heart of the Father. All of my brides who have devoted their time to prayer and confession of the sins of this world out of love for those around them, even strangers whom they never knew, Oh how beautiful is my bride on the battlefield. Tending to the wounds of others, caring for them in love, not thinking of herself as of anything. Oh how misunderstood prayer is on the earth. It is the start of every work in heaven, it is the release of the power of God in every place, situation and circumstance. I cannot begin to express my gratitude and joy on all those who pray for mercy, pray for forgiveness.’
‘My beloved bride, I am longing to see you. I am so eager to hold you. Be with me in this agonizing moment: to be with my bride and allow the loss of many, or to wait and draw more souls, while risking to lose some of my brides as they grow lukewarm.’
‘Come ye children of men, come to me, I WILL give you rest, believe in Me, trust in Me, I will prove My love for you all. I am able. I am loving, I am meek, I am Loving. I care for you, I weep with you, I dance with you, I enjoy with you. Allow me to be with you, allow me to enjoy, weep and laugh with you. Please, receive my Love. There is place for all of creation. Come and drink, and you shall not thirst. Come and eat and you shall not hunger. Come and take, and you shall not want. I AM, Jesus, YOUR Lover and God.’